"Nothing you confess could make me love you less."

Ever have one of those nights where the morning just can't get there fast enough?  Not because you're excited for the new day, but because you hope the days to come will hold the healing for the pain.

Has there ever been a moment in your life when you feel the world shift, and all to soon realize it was nothing.  However, almost as quickly you realize it wasn't the world that was moved, but something within you that was shaken.

Hope life's been good, kind and gracious to all of you   Sorry I haven't been around much, but I offer no remedy for that.  I do however, offer all my prayers and wishes that all who dwell here, no matter how often or sporadically, live a life befitting of their best efforts

Love and well wishes to all

-Kev-

My new lover and I are celebrating our one month today...she inspires me

Hope everyone here on Mindsay is having an incredible weekend

-Kev-

What are you made of?
Do you really want to know?
Is it something substantial?
Is it something for show?
Is it something concrete?
Or something like the air?
Something built to last the ages?
Or something not really worth a care?
Something to be proud of?
Something to hide?
Something to profess to the world?
Or keep hidden deep inside?
Something you're willing to change?
Or something you hope always stays the same?
Something worth dismissing?
Or will it force all to remember your name?
Ask yourself all these questions...
and then ask yourself just one question more...
Will you be the same tomorrow...
as who you were before?

-Kev-

It suddenly makes sense…then again maybe it always did.
The sense just wasn’t apparent…it was well hid.
Some things are supposed to happen, some things are meant to be.
There are things I must do…there are people I must be.
To fulfill my duties…and to fully play my role.
To be truly true to my heart…to listen to the cries of my soul.
To be all that I can, and be nothing at all.
To stand before some, and beneath others fall.
For even the trees do bend, in the face of a storm.
And the unique soon learn that they will conform.

Do what you must, but most importantly do what you can.
Be who you must, but be your own woman…be your own man.
Go where you must go for the person you are…
No matter how treacherous…no matter how far.
Take what you need, and leave what you can.
Brace yourself for the race, prepare for your stand.
Against all that is, so that you can become what you must.
With only your love…your hope…your trust.
In the end they are all you truly have, and you always will.
Look closer though, there is something hidden still…
The love of another, the love that pushes you on.
That reminds you of the words, when you heart’s forgotten its song.
So sing it loud…raise your voice to Heaven!
And know that you are loved, treasured, and supported, by a man named Kevin.

-Kev-

No idea what made me write this, but I know that I haven't written here in a looooong time, and well...inspiration came, and I couldn't think of a better place to put this

I long to stand, but fear the fall.
I tire of running, and long to call.
Call out for help, for some saving grace.
I wish you would hear me, and show me your face.
Tell me I’m yours, and that I’m not all alone.
Tell me I’m safe…tell me I’m home.

It isn’t that way, and will it ever be?
Will someone come struggle this struggle with me?
Stand against the wind and you’re destined to break.
Give all that you have and they’ll find more to take.
If there is meaning in suffering, then where is mine?
Perhaps all will be learnt, with the passing of time.

Hope life's been treating all my friendlies well, and even all of you who just happen along this little blog of mine.  To all of you who'll never come across this thing ever, I wish you all the best too

-Kev-

No taste more bitter than that of words unspoken...
No destruction greater than dreams left shattered and broken...
No span wider than between two lovers apart...
No pain worse than that of a breaking heart.

No greater loss than that of lost love...
No more painful word than when two lovers cry "enough"...
Nothing more unnerving than question in your lover's eyes...
No death more grievous than when your greatest love dies...

No greater light than in that of a smile found again...
No more elusive joy than that of love that reminds you of then...

Reason in suffering...
Strength to be found in sadness...
A sun behind your clouds...
Sanity in all of your madness...

Reason to smile...even when you see none.
Indefinite strength in numbers, than merely in one.
Love surrounding you, even when it seems misplaced.
Grace and honour in you...even when you feel disgraced.

Someone who cares, when the world seems to not...
Purpose in this war, which seems you've forever fought.
A need for your smile, to shine through your tears.
A need for you to return to that person we've held so dear.

A time for your sadness...but that time has passed.
A time for your happiness...it is now...make it last.

And the world goes on turning...

And as such, it continues to give me reason to smile at nothing, and let people think I'm crazy.  To love people, all people, without reason, because love never needs a reason, just a receiver...be it willing or unwilling  

The world is a great place to be...on the sunny days, but also especially on the rainy days...where else do you see tears doing the kind of work these tears do?  The tears of the the earth, the rain, refreshes, renews, and then reminds us with a brilliantly coloured smile, a rainbow, that there is beauty to be found in sadness...

So endure your sorrows, they're an inescapable part of life...use your every ounce of strength...use my every ounce of strength...and then, when all is said and done, and your forever-waged war is won, smile.  You've earned the right to...because you have cried...you have earned the RIGHT to be happy.

Love this place...love these people...love this LIFE!!!

I love this place...I love these people...I love this LIFE!!!

-Kev-

PS - I'm not a hippy

It's been a lifetime

Just wanted to say that all's well...a giant hole didn't appear before me and just swallow up my existence...no, no it didn't.

Finally broke up with Katie...actually, I broke up with her in July, and it hurt so much, I couldn't believe it.  Not gonna lie and say I didn't cry, cuz I did...for almost two whole weeks.  I knew that it was for her own good, but she still doesn't believe me, or see my reasoning whatsoever.  Hopefully time will indeed heal all, like the old adage so says. 

Hope life has been treating you all well:  Belle, Karo, Deana, Katelyn, and anyone else I haven't listed.  Write me and lemme know if it hasn't been...and we can kick ass and take names together!!!

Much love to everyone out there...listed as friend or otherwise.  No foes...life's too short for them...so we'll call them strangers, or friends, with not so mutual interests

Ciao for now everyone

-Kev-

I know I've been given strength enough to bear the weight of this world's sorrows, but sometimes it feels that the weight of my own heart could crush my bones into dust...

-Kev-